So I have talked it over with my wife and we have decided that I should take some time off. This isn’t a retirement, I am just giving myself some time to try and process everything that has been going on. I took this case only days after Andrews passing, leaving no time for any grieving or actualization of what I have witnessed and experienced. I experienced a good man slowly drift away more and more everyday. His wheezing, his sweating, and his growing weakness is something I see in the back of my mind almost every second of the week. This virus should be our country’s number one priority right now, and I wish they were doing more about it. The more I type about this the more I understand how I really did need some time away from everything. This realization is all due to my lovely wife. I am beyond gifted to be able to walk through all of this beside her. She has definitely been my rock through this crushing year.
I don’t know how much time I am going to take off. I had the idea of maybe going around and possibly becoming an AIDs activist. I know I may not be able to handle the cases anymore, but maybe becoming an activist would be a good compromise. I know Andrew’s story is something that has touched me, and if I was able to share his story, I’m sure it would touch others as well. Maybe becoming an activist would allow me to be a lawyer for the cause on a lesser platform. Avoiding the big corporate cases, but still ensuring that other groups who are trying to fight the Aids virus have a clear path in doing so. I told my wife this, and she says to take it one step at a time, and that I am already working before my time off is complete. Like she always says, she’s never wrong.
